“The sea does not reward those who are too anxious, too greedy, or too impatient. To dig for treasures shows not only impatience and greed, but lack of faith. Patience, patience, patience, is what the sea teaches. Patience and faith. One should lie empty, open, choiceless as a beach—waiting for a gift from the sea.”—Anne Morrow Lindbergh
My ship is becalmed in still waters. No wind in the sails (or sales). A publisher has said, “Everyone loves your book! I’ll call you tomorrow.”
Now a week has gone by with no call. A friend tells me, “When a woman says she’ll call you later, she means when she gets home. When a man says he’ll call you later, he means before he dies.”
I’ve done all I can do. I built the ship, provisioned it, hired the best crew I could find. Launched it with the crash of a Sparkling Cider bottle against the hull (no alcohol for me) with great fanfare. Crowds along the shore shouted and waved goodbye with great hopes in their hearts.
Now nothing. I can still see the ship, but it isn’t moving.
I appreciate King Agamemnon’s rage and frustration as all his ships sat in the harbor, with no wind to carry them to Troy to recapture Helen. Finally, he sacrificed his daughter, Iphigenia, to the gods and then the wind came.
Okay, so who do I have to kill?
I pause to think about that. I have no daughter of my body to sacrifice. What is the daughter of my soul that needs to be laid on the altar and given to God? The answer whispers in my mind: My will, my impatience, my pride.
I surrender. I decide to enjoy the moment of unknowing, where all dreams and wishes still remain possible. The wind can pick up at any moment, the “Yes!” can still arrive on the next wave. If “No” comes and this ship sinks, I will build another ship tomorrow.
We are only in charge of sending out ships. God is in charge of which ones come in. And on what timetable.
Today’s Affirmation: “The divine plan of my life now takes shape, leading me to perfect joy!”